Daniel Holden Smith
August 9, 2025
Here, and There
Today is a strange and tragic and beautiful day.
A glistening sun after a night of vivid dreams.
Renewal hides behind Endings,
bursting from the seams.
For you, a crisp quarter on the dollar (hopefully).
For me, a son saying “bye” to his father (full of hope).
Despite trying to release you from my mind
Now is a time for looking behind.
For setting tapes to ‘rewind’.
To sift out the sentiments
I am hoping to find.
To uplift the soul
which gave me his kind.
And here, you are caught in the net
– despite my trying to forget.
Strings of my heart pleading
“Please don’t go yet.”
What a crazy f**king world this is!
I’m so terribly heartbroken.
And yet I am overflowing with…
Well, all sorts of things.
Things?
FEELINGS.
Euphoria.
Gratitude.
Pain.
Grief.
Sorrow.
I feel hollow.
Luminous.
Infinite.
Vast.
Excited for my future
while gripped by the past.
Still, just words here.
I’m realizing: right now,
and a ways back,
that it’ll take my whole life
before I can herd my whole self into words.
Should I even try?
Words! Hardly vessels capable of holding me and You.
Words! They’re a start, but can they see us through?
Add an “I” + “Love” + “You”
= an equation with “equals” that differs for two.
We treat words like maths when really they’re magic.
My longing for You, both holy and tragic.
Singsonging the blues over a heart that won’t choose.
If I died tomorrow, how would you take the news?
I will die tomorrow,
part of me at least.
Your strength, I’d like to borrow it.
And on Your bounty, I’d like to feast.
The parts that die will fall out with cries
As I speak to my worlds
And bleed from my eyes.
I’m so afraid.
But come what may.
And despite all these goings on with me,
know I’m thinking of you.
The good, sad, ugly and true.
Today, I only hope you love you.
HBDAMG!
<3 Daniel